书城英文图书长大不是一个人的事情
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A common friend,who,d noticed the change of attitude,decided to play Cupid. So,he asked Peter out for me,without asking me! Then asked me out on behalf of Peter,without asking him! We ended up going out and laughing over what had happened!

A week later,we were officially a couple. I felt so lucky to be with the guy all the girls were literally drooling over. He was charming. He was funny. Best of all,he was popular. I could feel other girls,eyes piercing into my skin as I sat with him and laughed at the latest escapade in his life.

Popularity has its consequences,though. About a week after we,d started going out,I discovered a secret. He,d been going out with another girl,too. And another. He was leading us all along the same sweet path,with none of us having the slightest clue of what was going on. As soon as I found out,I decided to dump him. I wasn,t about to take any of this.

The so-called relationship ended in the drain. With so many girls running around trying to impress him,he found it very convenient to play with each one,s emotions.

For him,it was a popularity game. The one with the most girlfriends wins. Me,I don,t work like that. I wanted exclusivity. In the end,we finished where we had started-detesting each other,s guts. I fell in love with him because he was the most popular guy in school. I fell out of love for pretty much the same reason.

我爱上了他,因为他是学校里最受欢迎的人。他刚搬来镇上,就和他的兄弟们变成了整个学校的风云人物。他 们不仅是我们见过的最英俊的魅力男生,他们还是音乐家。而彼得是主唱歌手,这太酷了。

他转入我们学校时,我正生病待在家里。朋友们打电话给我,痴迷地诉说这个我必须得见见的新人。当她们告 诉我他在教室里怎样弹吉他,且从不做任何家庭作业,也不在乎任何人和任何事情的时候,我的好奇心变得更 加强烈。他去校长办公室的次数打破了学校的记录,这引发了我的好奇心,这是一个我必须认识的人。

学年初始,我生了病,因此十五天以后我返回学校的时候,教室里所有的座位都已经被安排好了,除了彼得和 我的。老师在教室边上放了一张桌子和两把椅子——这是临时安排的,直到她给我们找到合适的地方。

我们的第一天完全是一个灾难,彼得不仅固执、自私以及幼稚,而且每一件事都会和我争论。

“圆形的周长怎么计算?”

“不是那样的!”

“第二次世界大战开始于1939年,对吗?”

“是的,如果历史书都是正确的话。”

“芬兰的首都是什么地方?”

“为什么问这个,你打算去那里?”

不久,我们整日相互攻击。我发誓,如果不是因为他有双淡褐色的眼睛我早就宰了他。最后,有一天老师警告 我们最好开始和平相处,否则她会让我们整个学期都坐在一起。因为不想在下半学期再跟他多待一分钟,所以 我决定尝试与他和平相处。

对他友好一点没有我想象的那么困难。他的恶劣态度、嘲讽的话语,以及对周围每个人的公然无礼超出了我能 接受的程度。但是一旦他开始唱歌,你就会忘记教室里的一切。你唯一能听到就是他的歌声,你唯一能看到的 就是他的双眸。

随着日子一天天地过去,我们变得更加亲密。他的恶劣态度现在看起来非常酷,嘲讽的话语有点有趣。在了解 他之后,很难讨厌他。不久我又往前发展了一步,我已彻头彻尾地喜欢上了他。而我一点也不知道双方都已迸 发出爱的火花。

一个共同的朋友注意到我们之间的态度变化后,决定扮演爱神丘比特的角色。于是,他在没有寻问我的情况下,替我约彼得出去玩!然后在没有寻问彼得的情况下,代表彼得邀请我出去玩!我们最后一起出去约会,为发 生的此事笑个不停。

一个星期以后,我们正式成了一对。与这个被所有女孩都真正垂涎三尺的家伙在一起,我感到如此的幸运。他 很迷人,也很风趣,最主要的是他很受欢迎。当我和他坐在一起,为他生活中最新的恶作剧而大笑时,我能感 到其他女孩的眼睛要刺穿我的皮肤。

但是,受欢迎也包括它所带来的后果。大约在我们开始外出约会的一个星期后,我发现了一个秘密:他也一直 与另一名女孩外出约会;另外,他带我们俩走过同一条情人路,而我们俩都对发生的事儿没有丝毫察觉。当我 发现真相时,我决定甩了他。我无法接受这一切。

这场所谓的恋情以分手而告终。因为如此多的女孩在他身边围绕,努力给他留下深刻的印象,他便觉得玩弄每 个人的情感是很方便的事情。

于他,这是一场声望游戏。拥有最多女友的人获胜。而我并不想那样,我想要专一的感情。最后,我们回到了 伊始——开始厌恶彼此。我喜欢他,是因为他是学校里最受欢迎的男孩。我不再喜欢他,也是因为相同的原因。

rave

【释义】n. 咆哮;胡言乱语;热烈赞美 adj. 赞扬的

vt. 咆哮;语无伦次地说 vi. 咆哮;胡言乱语;狂骂

【短语】rave about 倾倒,沉醉于

curiosity

【释义】n. 好奇,好奇心;珍品,古董,古玩

【短语】out of curiosity 出于好奇心;intellectual curiosity 求知欲

assign

【释义】 vt. 分配;指派;[计][数] 赋值

vi. 将财产过户(尤指过户给债权人)

【短语】assign to 指派

temporary

【释义】n. 临时工,临时雇员 adj. 暂时的,临时的

【短语】temporary shelter 临时收容中心

immature

【释义】adj. 不成熟的;未成熟的;粗糙的

circumference

【释义】n. 圆周;周长;胸围

【短语】waist circumference 腰围

hazel

【释义】n. 淡褐色;榛子 adj. 淡褐色的;榛树的

【短语】hazel eyes 淡褐色的眼睛

atrocious

【释义】adj. 凶恶的,残暴的

【短语】atrocious deed 恶行

blatant

【释义】adj. 喧嚣的;公然的;炫耀的

【短语】blatant arresting 噪声信号;Blatant Corruption 公然腐败

My Beauty Way/ My Beauty Way

I remember owning almost every Barbie doll when I was young. I had Barbie dolls of every race along with the cars,dream houses,and I swear my Barbies had a bigger wardrobe than I had now as a young adult. I loved spending large amounts of time in my room and playing with them. I made my dolls the way I wanted my future self to be. Pretty,stylish,thin,and perfect. I swore that I would do whatever it took to be the most beautiful and most perfect girl I could be.

In middle school,it felt like that dream for me wasn,t going to happen. I was chubby,I had a face full of acne,and because my self esteem was so low,I wore baggy clothes to cover my body. I would continuously use multiple acne creams to clear my face and none of them would work. Then I would try to use makeup to cover my acne up but it was no use. I cried because I could never be the girl I wanted to be.

When I was fourteen,going on fifteen,my looks started to fall into place. My skin started to clear up,I started to lose weight,and I started to gain curves in all the right places. I became so confident about my new look,I started wearing makeup,buying cute clothes,and I even became friendlier. I started making friends and it wasn,t long before I started dating.

I met a guy who I would consider my first love. He seemed like the perfect boyfriend but,I don,t think I was ever good enough for him. Everyday he would tell me how fat I was and always remind me that I needed to lose weight. It soon started to bring back old memories of how much I had been tortured in middle school and I didn,t want to go through it again.

So I started working out an hour a day and slimming down what I ate. When I wasn,t losing weight fast enough,I added another hour to my work out plan. I soon went from only eating things such as salad,rice cakes and vegetables. It got to the point where I just completely stopped eating and then the weight started going down. I felt like I was finally that perfect girl again.

Eventually my boyfriend dumped me and I was completely devastated. I tried to go back to eating again but it was no use. It had gone to the point that I just ended up throwing up everything I ate. So I continued to just not eat. As I was turning 16,my eating disorder was starting to become noticeable. But,for some reason I couldn,t stop. I was finally a size two and I felt that I was that girl that I always wanted to be.

Things started to take a turn for the worst. I started to work out up to four hours a day as well as only eating bread and salad every now and then. One day in the middle of working out,I had completely black out. I ended up waking up hours later and I found my body to be too weak in order to pick myself up. I couldn,t get up for a long time and after that night,I knew I had to find a way to take better care of my body.