ANN.[Drily.] Daddy! If it is the first of April, it's not necessary to make a fool of oneself.That's the last time you ever do these ridiculous things.[WELLWYN eyes her askance.] I'm going to see that you spend your money on yourself.You needn't look at me like that! I mean to.As soon as I've got you away from here, and all--these--WELLWYN.Don't rub it in, Ann!
ANN.[Giving him a sudden hug--then going to the door--with a sort of triumph.] Deeds, not words, Daddy!
[She goes out, and the wind catching her scarf blows it out beneath her firm young chin.WELLWYN returning to the fire, stands brooding, and gazing at his extinct cigarette.
WELLWYN.[To himself.] Bad lot--low type! No method! No theory!
[In the open doorway appear FERRAND and MRS.MEGAN.They stand, unseen, looking at him.FERRAND is more ragged, if possible, than on Christmas Eve.His chin and cheeks are clothed in a reddish golden beard.MRS.MEGAN's dress is not so woe-begone, but her face is white, her eyes dark-circled.
They whisper.She slips back into the shadow of the doorway.
WELLWYN turns at the sound, and stares at FERRAND in amazement.]
FERRAND.[Advancing.] Enchanted to see you, Monsieur.[He looks round the empty room.] You are leaving?
WELLWYN.[Nodding--then taking the young man's hand.] How goes it?
FERRAND.[Displaying himself, simply.] As you see, Monsieur.Ihave done of my best.It still flies from me.
WELLWYN.[Sadly--as if against his will.] Ferrand, it will always fly.
[The young foreigner shivers suddenly from head to foot; then controls himself with a great effort.]
FERRAND.Don't say that, Monsieur! It is too much the echo of my heart.
WELLWYN.Forgive me! I didn't mean to pain you.
FERRAND.[Drawing nearer the fire.] That old cabby, Monsieur, you remember--they tell me, he nearly succeeded to gain happiness the other day.
[WELLWYN nods.]
FERRAND.And those Sirs, so interested in him, with their theories?
He has worn them out? [WELLWYN nods.] That goes without saying.
And now they wish for him the lethal chamber.
WELLWYN.[Startled.] How did you know that?
[There is silence.
FERRAND.[Staring into the fire.] Monsieur, while I was on the road this time I fell ill of a fever.It seemed to me in my illness that I saw the truth--how I was wasting in this world--I would never be good for any one--nor any one for me--all would go by, and Inever of it--fame, and fortune, and peace, even the necessities of life, ever mocking me.
[He draws closer to the fire, spreading his fingers to the flame.And while he is speaking, through the doorway MRS.
MEGAN creeps in to listen.]
FERRAND.[Speaking on into the fire.] And I saw, Monsieur, so plain, that I should be vagabond all my days, and my days short, Idying in the end the death of a dog.I saw it all in my fever--clear as that flame--there was nothing for us others, but the herb of death.[WELLWYN takes his arm and presses it.] And so, Monsieur, I wished to die.I told no one of my fever.I lay out on the ground--it was verree cold.But they would not let me die on the roads of their parishes--they took me to an Institution, Monsieur, I looked in their eyes while I lay there, and I saw more clear than the blue heaven that they thought it best that I should die, although they would not let me.Then Monsieur, naturally my spirit rose, and I said: "So much the worse for you.I will live a little more." One is made like that! Life is sweet, Monsieur.
WELLWYN.Yes, Ferrand; Life is sweet.
FERRAND.That little girl you had here, Monsieur [WELLWYN nods.]
in her too there is something of wild-savage.She must have joy of life.I have seen her since I came back.She has embraced the life of joy.It is not quite the same thing.[He lowers his voice.]
She is lost, Monsieur, as a stone that sinks in water.I can see, if she cannot.[As WELLWYN makes a movement of distress.] Oh! Iam not to blame for that, Monsieur.It had well begun before I knew her.
WELLWYN.Yes, yes--I was afraid of it, at the time.
[MRS.MEGAN turns silently, and slips away.]
FEERRAND.I do my best for her, Monsieur, but look at me! Besides, I am not good for her--it is not good for ****** souls to be with those who see things clear.For the great part of mankind, to see anything--is fatal.
WELLWYN.Even for you, it seems.
FERRAND.No, Monsieur.To be so near to death has done me good; Ishall not lack courage any more till the wind blows on my grave.
Since I saw you, Monsieur, I have been in three Institutions.They are palaces.One may eat upon the floor--though it is true--for Kings--they eat too much of skilly there.One little thing they lack--those palaces.It is understanding of the 'uman heart.In them tame birds pluck wild birds naked.
WELLWYN.They mean well.
FERRAND.Ah! Monsieur, I am loafer, waster--what you like--for all that [bitterly] poverty is my only crime.If I were rich, should I not be simply veree original, 'ighly respected, with soul above commerce, travelling to see the world? And that young girl, would she not be "that charming ladee," "veree chic, you know!" And the old Tims--good old-fashioned gentleman--drinking his liquor well.
Eh! bien--what are we now? Dark beasts, despised by all.That is life, Monsieur.[He stares into the fire.]
WELLWYN.We're our own enemies, Ferrand.I can afford it--you can't.Quite true!
FERRAND.[Earnestly.] Monsieur, do you know this? You are the sole being that can do us good--we hopeless ones.
WELLWYN.[Shaking his head.] Not a bit of it; I'm hopeless too.
FERRAND.[Eagerly.] Monsieur, it is just that.You understand.
When we are with you we feel something--here--[he touches his heart.] If I had one prayer to make, it would be, Good God, give me to understand! Those sirs, with their theories, they can clean our skins and chain our 'abits--that soothes for them the aesthetic sense; it gives them too their good little importance.But our spirits they cannot touch, for they nevare understand.Without that, Monsieur, all is dry as a parched skin of orange.
WELLWYN.Don't be so bitter.Think of all the work they do!