SHARGAR'S MOTHER.
It was a warm still night in July--moonless but not dark.There is no night there in the summer--only a long ethereal twilight.He walked through the sleeping town so full of memories, all quiet in his mind now--quiet as the air that ever broods over the house where a friend has dwelt.He left the town behind, and walked--through the odours of grass and of clover and of the yellow flowers on the old earthwalls that divided the fields--sweet scents to which the darkness is friendly, and which, mingling with the smell of the earth itself, reach the founts of memory sooner than even words or tones--down to the brink of the river that flowed scarcely murmuring through the night, itself dark and brown as the night from its far-off birthplace in the peaty hills.He crossed the footbridge and turned into the bleachfield.Its houses were desolate, for that trade too had died away.The machinery stood rotting and rusting.
The wheel gave no answering motion to the flow of the water that glided away beneath it.The thundering beatles were still.The huge legs of the wauk-mill took no more seven-leagued strides nowhither.The rubbing-boards with their thickly-fluted surfaces no longer frothed the soap from every side, tormenting the web of linen into a brightness to gladden the heart of the housewife whose hands had spun the yarn.The terrible boiler that used to send up from its depths bubbling and boiling spouts and peaks and ridges, lay empty and cold.The little house behind, where its awful furnace used to glow, and which the pungent chlorine used to fill with its fumes, stood open to the wind and the rain: he could see the slow river through its unglazed window beyond.The water still went slipping and sliding through the deserted places, a power whose use had departed.The canal, the delight of his childhood, was nearly choked with weeds; it went flowing over long grasses that drooped into it from its edges, giving a faint gurgle once and again in its flow, as if it feared to speak in the presence of the stars, and escaped silently into the river far below.The grass was no longer mown like a lawn, but was long and deep and thick.He climbed to the place where he had once lain and listened to the sounds of the belt of fir-trees behind him, hearing the voice of Nature that whispered God in his ears, and there he threw himself down once more.All the old things, the old ways, the old glories of childhood--were they gone? No.Over them all, in them all, was God still.There is no past with him.An eternal present, He filled his soul and all that his soul had ever filled.His history was taken up into God: it had not vanished: his life was hid with Christ in God.To the God of the human heart nothing that has ever been a joy, a grief, a passing interest, can ever cease to be what it has been; there is no fading at the breath of time, no passing away of fashion, no dimming of old memories in the heart of him whose being creates time.Falconer's heart rose up to him as to his own deeper life, his indwelling deepest spirit--above and beyond him as the heavens are above and beyond the earth, and yet nearer and homelier than his own most familiar thought.'As the light fills the earth,'
thought he, 'so God fills what we call life.My sorrows, O God, my hopes, my joys, the upliftings of my life are with thee, my root, my life.Thy comfortings, my perfect God, are strength indeed!'
He rose and looked around him.While he lay, the waning, fading moon had risen, weak and bleared and dull.She brightened and brightened until at last she lighted up the night with a wan, forgetful gleam.'So should I feel,' he thought, 'about the past on which I am now gazing, were it not that I believe in the God who forgets nothing.That which has been, is.' His eye fell on something bright in the field beyond.He would see what it was, and crossed the earthen dyke.It shone like a little moon in the grass.
By humouring the reflection he reached it.It was only a cutting of white iron, left by some tinker.He walked on over the field, thinking of Shargar's mother.If he could but find her! He walked on and on.He had no inclination to go home.The solitariness of the night, the uncanniness of the moon, prevents most people from wandering far: Robert had learned long ago to love the night, and to feel at home with every aspect of God's world.How this peace contrasted with the nights in London streets! this grass with the dark flow of the Thames! these hills and those clouds half melted into moonlight with the lanes blazing with gas! He thought of the child who, taken from London for the first time, sent home the message: 'Tell mother that it's dark in the country at night.' Then his thoughts turned again to Shargar's mother! Was it not possible, being a wanderer far and wide, that she might be now in Rothieden?
Such people have a love for their old haunts, stronger than that of orderly members of society for their old homes.He turned back, and did not know where he was.But the lines of the hill-tops directed him.He hastened to the town, and went straight through the sleeping streets to the back wynd where he had found Shargar sitting on the doorstep.Could he believe his eyes? A feeble light was burning in the shed.Some other poverty-stricken bird of the night, however, might be there, and not she who could perhaps guide him to the goal of his earthly life.He drew near, and peeped in at the broken window.A heap of something lay in a corner, watched only by a long-snuffed candle.
The heap moved, and a voice called out querulously,'Is that you, Shargar, ye shochlin deevil?'
Falconer's heart leaped.He hesitated no longer, but lifted the latch and entered.He took up the candle, snuffed it as he best could, and approached the woman.When the light fell on her face she sat up, staring wildly with eyes that shunned and sought it.
'Wha are ye that winna lat me dee in peace and quaietness?'
'I'm Robert Falconer.'
'Come to speir efter yer ne'er-do-weel o' a father, I reckon,' she said.
'Yes,' he answered.