Ralph understood well enough, however."I should think so, with all those occupations you speak of.""It isn't that.I'm afraid," said Isabel.After a pause she repeated, as if to make herself, rather than him, hear the words: "I'm afraid."Ralph could hardly tell what her tone meant; it was so strangely deliberate-apparently so void of emotion.Did she wish to do public penance for a fault of which she had not been convicted? or were her words simply an attempt at enlightened self-analysis? However this might be, Ralph could not resist so easy an opportunity."Afraid of your husband?""Afraid of myself! " she said, getting up.She stood there a moment and then added: "If I were afraid of my husband that would be simply my duty.That's what women are expected to be.""Ah yes," laughed Ralph; "but to make up for it there's always some man awfully afraid of some woman!"She gave no heed to this pleasantry, but suddenly took a different turn."With Henrietta at the head of your little band," she exclaimed abruptly, "there will be nothing left for Mr.Goodwood!""Ah, my dear Isabel," Ralph answered, "he's used to that.There is nothing left for Mr.Goodwood."She coloured and then observed, quickly, that she must leave him.
They stood together a moment; both her hands were in both of his.
"You've been my best friend," she said.
"It was for you that I wanted-that I wanted to live.But I'm of no use to you."Then it came over her more poignantly that she should not see him again.She could not accept that; she could not part with him that way."If you should send for me I'd come," she said at last.
"Your husband won't consent to that."
"Oh yes, I can arrange it."
"I shall keep that for my last pleasure!" said Ralph.
In answer to which she simply kissed him.It was a Thursday, and that evening Caspar Goodwood came to Palazzo Roccanera.He was among the first to arrive, and he spent some time in conversation with Gilbert Osmond, who almost always was present when his wife received.They sat down together, and Osmond, talkative, communicative, expansive, seemed possessed with a kind of intellectual gaiety.He leaned back with his legs crossed, lounging and chatting, while Goodwood, more restless, but not at all lively, shifted his position, played with his hat, made the little sofa creak beneath him.
Osmond's face wore a sharp, aggressive smile; he was as a man whose perceptions have been quickened by good news.He remarked to Goodwood that he was sorry they were to lose him; he himself should particularly miss him.He saw so few intelligent men-they were surprisingly scarce in Rome.He must be sure to come back; there was something very refreshing, to an inveterate Italian like himself, in talking with a genuine outsider.
"I'm very fond of Rome, you know," Osmond said, "but there's nothing I like better than to meet people who haven't that superstition.The modern world's after all very fine.Now you're thoroughly modern and yet are not at all common.So many of the moderns we see are such very poor stuff.If they're the children of the future we're willing to die young.Of course the ancients too are often very tiresome.My wife and I like everything that's really new-not the mere pretence of it.