Chapter 15
The army driven back into Virginia, went into winter quarters on theRapidan—a tired, depleted army since the defeat at Gettysburg—and as the Christmas season approached, Ashley came home on furlough. Scarlett, seeing him for the first time in more than two years, was frightened by the violence of her feelings.When she had stood in the parlor at Twelve Oaks and seen him married to Melanie, she had thought she could never love him with a more heartbreaking intensity than she did at that moment.But now she knew her feelings of that long-past night were those of a spoiled child thwarted of a toy.Now, her emotions were sharpened by her long dreams of him, heightened by the repression she had been forced to put on her tongue.
This Ashley Wilkes in his faded, patched uniform, his blond hair bleached tow by summer suns, was a different man from the easy-going, drowsy-eyed boy she had loved to desperation before the war. And he was a thousand times more thrilling.He was bronzed and lean now, where he had once been fair andslender, and the long golden mustache drooping about his mouth, cavalry style, was the last touch needed to make him the perfect picture of a soldier.
He stood with military straightness in his old uniform, his pistol in its worn holster, his battered scabbard smartly slapping his high boots, his tarnished spurs dully gleaming—Major Ashley Wilkes, C. S.A.The habit of command sat upon him now, a quiet air of self-reliance and authority, and grim lines were beginning to emerge about his mouth.There was something new and strange about the square set of his shoulders and the cool bright gleam of his eyes.Where he had once been lounging and indolent, he was now as alert as a prowling cat, with the tense alertness of one whose nerves are perpetually drawn as tight as the strings of a violin.In his eyes, there was a fagged, haunted look, and the sunburned skin was tight across the fine bones of his face—her same handsome Ashley, yet so very different.
Scarlett had made her plans to spend Christmas at Tara, but after Ashley's telegram came no power on earth, not even a direct command from the disappointed Ellen, could drag her away from Atlanta. Had Ashley intended going to Twelve Oaks, she would have hastened to Tara to be near him;but he had written his family to join him in Atlanta, and Mr.Wilkes and Honey and India were already in town.Go home to Tara and miss seeing him, after two long years?Miss the heart-quickening sound of his voice, miss reading in his eyes that he had not forgotten her?Never!Not for all the mothers in the world.
Ashley came home four days before Christmas, with a group of the County boys also on furlough, a sadly diminished group since Gettysburg. Cade Calvert was among them, a thin, gaunt Cade, who coughed continually, two of the Munroe boys, bubbling with the excitement of their first leave since 1861,and Alex and Tony Fontaine, splendidly drunk, boisterous and quarrelsome.The group had two hours to wait between trains and, as it was taxing the diplomacy of the sober members of the party to keep the Fontaines from fighting each other and perfect strangers in the depot, Ashley brought them all home to Aunt Pittypat's.
“You'd think they'd had enough fighting in Virginia,”said Cade bitterly, as he watched the two bristle like gamecocks over who should be the first to kiss the fluttering and flattered Aunt Pitty.“But no. They've been drunk andpicking fights ever since we got to Richmond.The provost guard took them up there and if it hadn't been for Ashley's slick tongue, they'd have spent Christmas in jail.”
But Scarlett hardly heard a word he said, so enraptured was she at being in the same room with Ashley again. How could she have thought during these two years that other men were nice or handsome or exciting?How could she have even endured hearing them make love to her when Ashley was in the world?He was home again, separated from her only by the width of the parlor rug, and it took all her strength not to dissolve in happy tears every time she looked at him sitting there on the sofa with Melly on one side and India on the other and Honey hanging over his shoulder.If only she had the right to sit there beside him, her arm through his!If only she could pat his sleeve every few minutes to make sure he was really there, hold his hand and use his handkerchief to wipe away her tears of joy.For Melanie was doing all these things, unashamedly.Too happy to be shy and reserved, she hung on her husband's arm and adored him openly with her eyes, with her smiles, her tears.And Scarlett was too happy to resent this, too glad to be jealous.Ashley was home at last!
Now and then she put her hand up to her cheek where he had kissed her and felt again the thrill of his lips and smiled at him. He had not kissed her first, of course.Melly had hurled herself into his arms, crying incoherently, holding him as though she would never let him go.And then, India and Honey had hugged him, fairly tearing him from Melanie's arms.Then he had kissed his father, with a dignified affectionate embrace that showed the strong quiet feeling that lay between them.And then Aunt Pitty, who was jumping up and down on her inadequate little feet with excitement.Finally he turned to her, surrounded by all the boys who were claiming their kisses, and said:“Oh, Scarlett!You pretty, pretty thing!”and kissed her on the cheek.